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On my way to inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Chelsea |
On my way to inpatient
rehab, I am so scared!
My plane leaves tomorrow
and I am on my way to inpatient rehab all by myself and I am
scared to death! I don't want to go, I already miss everyone and
I miss my family! How will I ever make it through those first
ten days??? Can anyone help me with some advice????
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imlost
inky |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
It's only scary
because it is an unknown.
After a few days, it won't be so scary anymore.
You haven't shut any doors. If at the end of your treatment
time, you want to go back to who you were and where you were,
that is still an option.
In the meantime, you give it your best. Go in with an open mind-
and just see.
My sister entered and completed a 12 week in treatment program
with a very reputable facility.
She had been shooting up for over 2 years at the time.
She has been clean now for 10 years- paid for the treatment
herself- and considers it to be the best money she ever spent.
This very well could be the one thing you do that saves your
life.
Be sure to check in when you get done - let us know how you are
doing.
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So much
guilt |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Hi Chelesa
I guess my first question would be, why don't you want to go?
This is all about you and ending an addiction. Are you not ready
for this? You have to choose what you want in your life. Are you
ready to stop using? I will hope and pray that your answer is
yes. Life is so short and you can do this if this is what you
want to do.... My 22 year old son took his life this past
August. Austin battled a 10 year drug addiction, in and out of
rehabs. He tried to make them work, but I know he shared with me
over and over again that he was just doing it for me and his
dad. He wasn't ready. By time meth got it's hold on him, he
couldn't live without it or live with what it did to him. I miss
him so much, it is unbearable some days. Please visit his
website, light a candle, read his story and may Austin's story
give you strength to not be afraid of going for treatment.
www.austin-hesse.last-memories.com
God Bless You and please keep in touch. I will be thinking of
you.
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guest
who |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Chelsea, a lot of
it probably is the meth trying to convince you not to go.
Everyone and your family has missed you too, while you were not
yourself (doing drugs.) They will miss you while you are gone
but what you all are going to reap when you are well is
soooooooooo much worth it. You are going to learn so much about
yourself. I am excited for you! You'll make it, imagine how
proud you will be of yourself and how nice it will be to spend
time with those you love, SOBER, when you get out. It's natural
to have t hose feelings but you are going to be just fine. Bless
you.
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teqa
peq |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Chelsa
Fear of the unknown. Take a deep breath, hold it for 10 seconds
and then let it out. Don't' let the fear hold you back from what
you know you must do. Keep telling yourself that this is the
first day of the rest of my life and it's going to be awesome.
Think about it as the first day of college excited for the new
life yet fearful of leaving home for the first time.
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Chelsea |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
I was just
visiting Austin's website and I had tears in my eyes the entire
time. I completely can relate to Austin. It is the hardest thing
I have ever gone through before, it is so hard. I don't even
like it and I know I am destroying myself but I still keep doing
it. It is as if I am stuck. I do want this more then anything to
go to rehab and be fine and come back clean and stay clean. If
not I will die. I think with Austin, he wanted the same thing,
to beat the killer drug and have a normal life, it is so very
hard though, sometimes I think impossible. I know that although
I don't show it much, sometimes not at all, I still love my
family more than anything. I have put them through hell with my
addiction and my family is just like you were to Austin. I also
was kicked out of my house because my mom couldn't allow me to
be a meth addict in her home anymore. What you did wasn't wrong,
and he knew you did it because you wanted him to get better and
he knows you loved him and although he never would admit it, he
knew you were doing the right thing when you kicked him out. I
will go to rehab tomorrow and take Austin's story with me to
help me have the strength to get through this so I can live for
myself, for Austin, and for all the other's who are struggling
with this life shattering never ending battle with meth.
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teqa
peq |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Got this from
another site I am on. Loved it and wanted to share!
Four Choices of the Present Moment
In the present moment we can choose
NOT to be controlled by Fear.
In the present moment we can choose
NOT to be controlled by Aggression.
In the present moment we can choose
NOT to be controlled by Pride.
And in the present moment we can most certainly choose
NOT to strive foolishly to Control others.
There is power in mindfulness.
There is power in awareness.
There is power in being fully aware of a negative feeling or
impulse
during the IN-breath and then to choose relaxation during the
OUT-breath;
for that exhaling relaxation, no matter how slight it may be,
contains within it:
-the potential for enlightenment itself,
-the potential for liberation itself
-and the potential for freedom itself.
Remember, the freedom we seek
is NOT the idealistic freedom from the mere presence
of negative feelings or impulses,
for that would be a lobotomy!
NO, the freedom we seek
is from the Tyranny of negative feelings or impulses;
freedom from the control of negative feelings or impulses
and even freedom from our tendency to Grasp at them.
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nine
years
clean |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
ChelseA.
I would have LOVED to have had the opportunity to enter
inpatient rehab to help me end my 13 year meth addiction.
But my insurance didn't cover inpatient. So I did it cold
turkey, in the rooms of NA, and with the love and support of the
fellowship of NA.
Thank God it worked for me, but how much easier it would have
been to have real medical treatment for a real medical disease,
such as meth addiction.
Please take it one day at a time; give yourself this gift, for
it is the gift of life.
You'll be fine. Be brave; be strong; be willing; be grateful.
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Chelsea |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Here is a poem I
wrote recently
Broken
A baby girl I had On a day not long ago
A relationship gone bad A mommy she don't know
A heart shattered and gone No way it will repair
Not knowing what went wrong Or why her mommy isn't
there
Each day that passes by I pull farther away
I wish someone could tell me why It's so hard
for me to stay
This little girl is growing fast Mommy's missing all
her firsts Her very first step has gone and passed
Knowing I missed that is the worst
I hope one day I'll come around And kiss my past
goodbye She'll be so happy once mommy's found
The thought of it makes me cry
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Chelsea |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Here is a poem my
mother wrote about meth
A Mothers Pain
You took away my husband, I no longer am a wife.
You took away my daughter, I no longer have a life.
A precious, little baby girl lost her Mom and Dad.
You've taken everything I love, I've never been so sad.
You're ugly and you're evil, you're scary and you're mean.
You are the most destructive thing that I have ever seen.
Please give me back my family and give me back my life.
The pain that you have caused me cuts deeper then a knife.
I hear you and I see you, no matter what I do.
Meth, why are you killing me, I never touched you. |
no more
mething
around |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
(((HUGS)))
Go give it hell, girl.
Please come back and tell us how it goes.
I would be scarred, too !!
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teqa
peq |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Chelesa
You are soo soo lucky to have such a wonderful mom who
continually expresses her love for you. You must be a wonderful
young women or she would have given up. She knows the real you,
the one that you have buried with anger and resentment, The one
that is hiding behind walls so high that you can't see anymore.
Go to that rehab and bring that girl back with you. She's that
magical little inner child within you and you have lost touch
with her. Go get back in touch with the real you. And then you
will be the wonderful Mom to your daughter just like you Mom was
for you.
Your in my prays
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imlost
inky |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Quote:
It is as if I am stuck.
That is the grand illusion of meth Chelsea.
You are not as stuck as you feel.
In the beginning, it is hard. You feel as if you are stuck in
quicksand and every step bogs you down that much further.
It gets better with time. You hang in there- you go to your
treatment facility.
Chelsea, the day will come when you look back and you wonder why
you didn't go sooner. All of this - all the false security- you
will see it for what it is, an illusion.
You don't need meth to live. There is no life with meth.
There is no high with meth that can match the high you will find
in life.
When you get through to the other side, when you get out of the
quicksand, you will know what I am talking about.
There is a lifetime still of firsts with your daughter.
So many I can not even begin to list them all.
You don't want to miss another day for meth.
You have missed too many as it is.
You go tomorrow and you know you are so not alone here.
All of us will be with you- you will be in our thoughts.
You can beat this- there is life after meth. So much more than
you have ever imagined.
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danimal
55 |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
Fear not Chelsea,
and remember...there IS one thing harder than kicking
meth......... continuing to use it.
You're going to the "safe zone" where you'll feel safer and more
cared for than you have in a long time.
"Stuck" describes meth addiction quite well and you're about to
get un-stuck, your mind may be squirming but your spirit is
already celebrating.....ours too!
For now lets keep it simple, imagine one hand is full of love
and the other is full of fear, which hand do you want to eat out
of?
"God" [love] is the first to leave and the last to return in the
face of meth addiction, so be munching' on that love you've got
a hold of.
The mask of the great deceiver is about to come off, YOU are
finished being a slave to the Epitome of Sorcery. And you
have an entire forum who's got your back, and trust me..... we
WILL celebrate with YOU.
Not just a little!
Freeeee at last!
Good luck!
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luve
piphany |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
FEAR
False Evidence Absent of Reality
did I remember it right Dee?
Well, this one works for me when I'm scared...I read it and then
I think it over...
God's greatest blessings to You Chelsea-go find You
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iw2q06 |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
the thought of
going away from my family into rehab always scares the @#%$
outta me. the fact that there's someone who is going to do it
(as in you) makes me feel a whole lot better. I'm happy u are
going to go. u are making a great decision and are changing your
life to better.... i hope when u come back I could learn lots of
what they teach you.
your an inspiration. |
pepper
4308 |
Re: On my way to
inpatient rehab, I am so scared!
I won't pretend to understand
your anxiety - but I will say you need to be so proud of
yourself for taking this step. It means you're ready for change.
Go into it with open eyes, open heart, open mind. You have the
love of family and they will be there for you when you're done -
with open arms!
My prayers are with you and I can't wait to hear from you when
you're done. |
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