| catest |
Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Hello all. An old using "buddy" of mine is back in
town for a few days. I only know this because he is doing some
day labor for the company my hubby works for. Anyhow, this buddy
says he only does it "every now and then" these days.
Hmmm. "Every Now and Then?" I remember thinking I was doing it
every now and then.
What does every now and then mean? To me, it meant twice a
month. Then it meant every weekend. Then it meant every day or
every other day. Then it meant every morning. Then it meant that
some days I did it a lot, all thru the day, and others I only
did it once or twice.
Then I tried to stop, and found out what this thing is really
all about.
This guy has been there...prison, parole, being under
surveillance...he has seen the hard core, nasty side of meth.
He's sworn it off countless times.
So...why would he say he does it every now and then? He KNOWS
I'm not one to judge. If he's using, he's using, makes no
difference to me. I never liked him anyway, dope or no dope - I
just hung out with him for the cheap deals he could get.
I dunno. I don't think I'll ever "get" the way us tweakers act
when we're in active addiction. Even while I was using, I
thought it was a bunch of BS and didn't understand our behavior.
Every now and then? WHATEVER!!! |
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danimal
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Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use? - Casual Use?
"Every now and then" my asss. Your friend has
demonstrated the absurdity of "swearing off".
And ((((stay the hell away)))) from people like that, he can
light that VERY short fuse on your addiction.
He's full of shyt [like duh] and YOU are way to close to him.
Hit the ground runnin', don't even hesitate. |
| Penelope |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Tina, I was freakin out when I saw the title of
this post - I thought you were gonna tell us that YOU had
decided to use "Every now and then."
I was gonna open up a huge can of Whoop Ass and send it your
way...
PHEW! |
| Sfj |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
I used every now and then.
Now I'd use, and then I'd use some more.
Not too complicated. |
imlost
inky
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Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Tina, I lived 3 years with my husband's every now
and again.
Apparently in hindsight my idea of every now and again did not
match his.
His idea of every now and again kept him away from his family-
even when he was here, he was not here.
His idea of every now and again isolated him from all positive
people.
His idea of every now and again cost him his truck- the one he
souped up and that the kids bought all kinds of cool stuff for.
His idea of every now and again was one more month of every now
and again of costing him his very best friend and wife of 20
years-
one more month -that is all he had left.
And that would have been the best thing his every now and again
did.
I don't know that he had one more month of every now and again
left- his health was going before my eyes.
Sorry, Hon, but to me when I hear the words every now and again-
that the vision I see - of losing all that I held dear to my
heart and soul and not a damn thing I could do but watch him go.
Every now and again has a very high price.
His idea now is never again. |
catest
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Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Has anyone ever KNOWN someone personally who used
"every now and then?" and could choose NOT TO USE if they wanted
to?
I know one person. But he's really a pot-head hippie at heart,
so I don't know if that counts.
Not that I'm looking for proof or anything, but I'm just
curious. And very skeptical. |
Guene
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Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
My daughter told me that once
and I believed her, but now will we all know that truth. |
imlost
inky
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Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Tina, my husband did not use daily - in his mind it
was every now and again because it wasn't daily.
It isn't the amounts used or the frequency of use that makes a
person an addict.
It is the getting it after you have sworn time and time again
you weren't getting it anymore- it is the putting of the baggie
above what was really needed to do with that money- it is the
isolation use brings-
whether he used every day, every week, twice a month, it did not
matter.
The effects and damage done was the same.
He used when he told himself I'm not using it anymore.
He could not walk away - no matter how much clean time he had.
My husband could get a quarter gram and have it last 2-3 days.
He could then not use for a week , 2 , 3 even- but if it came
back around and he had money or could get money or a buddy
offered a freebie, he was not walking away.
The desire to use overode all he had sworn to himself that he
would not do.
It isn't the amount used or the frequency used- it is the hold
it has on you that no matter what you say to yourself, if it's
there, you are doing it-
whether you do it that night or the next- no matter.
Do I know of people that can do it every now and again?
Yes- it is every now and again for a lot of reasons- that is all
they can find is the biggest one, all they can afford being
next.
Now ask if those same people can walk away when it is there in
their face?
NO. I know of no one that can just use once in awhile and walk
away from freebies.
No matter what promises they made.
My husband is an addict- recovering addict - but an addict all
the same.
He can not use every now and again - any use is out of the
question. If he uses, he can not walk away from it.
It all begins again. |
Radical
Inspiration |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Catest,
I like imlostinky's response to you. As far as your question "
Has anyone ever KNOWN someone personally who used 'every now and
then?' and could choose NOT TO USE if they wanted to?"...
I used to be heavy into meth much like many of you. I've been
trying to recover, but I can't say I haven't been using. I've
averaged a relapse about once a month for the past year. I would
consider that every "once-in awhile". But I won't say that I can
successfully choose right now to to not use yet. (we will see at
the end of this month.) And yes, imlostinky, most of my relapses
come not from me buying it, but from going to a friend's house
and having a "freebie" thrown at me to start up my addiction
again. I try really hard at the beginnings of the months, and I
do well in my recovery, but I always get lazy towards the end
and find myself going over to a friend's house again.
Now if you ask me if using once a month is really any better
than using all the time... I don't really think so. If I do a
yearly evaluation of my recovery, I can now see that I've been
spinning my wheels for the last year. Yes, I did get a job, but
I still have no free money. My debts aren't any closer to being
payed off, and my car is still kept in a state of disarray and
mal-mantainence. Also, I just haven't felt that growth inside
that I know I should have started feeling. Using once a month
gives me a chance to feel a bit better physically, but it leaves
out so much of the recovery that I KNOW I need...
Sorry, I guess I really don't know anybody who only uses "every
once-in-awhile" (even if it's just once a month like me) who
wouldn't put you in a dangerous spot of temptation when that
"once-in-awhile" came. Makes me want to do better in my recovery
so I'm not one of those real "every once-in-awhile" type people.
Stay Strong! |
imlost
inky |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Radical, I have found sometimes that free stuff
just costs way too much.
It isn't free.
Every month you pay- just not with cash.
Hang on, hold tight-
and this month visit a different friend
Then it won't be a cycle anymore- you broke the chain.
Just as simple as that- not easy, but that simple.
You can do it Rad.I know you can. |
Radical
Inspiration |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Thanks imlostinky,
I understand the simplicity of that statement and I know what I
must do. My schedule of relapses would put one RIGHT after the
holidays for me, and I definately don't want to lose all my
christmas money to meth. I know that I'm the one in control of
that schedule and after the holidays I'm going to make sure to
either go to a meeting, or go to my best friend's house (has
been recovering since before I even started meth and even tried
to warn me away from it to begin with).
Stay Strong! |
Silent
SonIII |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Reading down this post and I had very genuine
thoughts about getting high. I have over 130 days clean and I
know why I visit this web site and let all you people help me
stay clean.
Using=active addiction for me. Best for me to not use today. |
imlost
inky
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Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Quote:
Best for me to not use today
Best for everybody not to use today- one day at a time. |
Crazy
Bipolar |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
Yeah I used every now and again.......didn't think
I had a problem, thats how meth gets you. Its when you can't
afford it, can't score or don't want to use anymore that every
now and again turns into a full blown addiction that you can't
walk away from.
I started off smoking meth every now and again, then I was
introduced to the needle and blasted it every now and again.
Then when I had no money I'd have sex with a dealer every now
and again. Then I'd steal money from my beautiful family every
now and again. Notice a pattern??
I was only a little bit addicted....honest....LOL. |
imlost
inky |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
There you are
I have been looking for you for forever-
Good to see you "C" -really good.
Yeah them every now and agains can be a real danger sometimes. |
| chodbritt |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
i believe i do it every now and then.
but now i dont want to do it at all
because of the actions thats im doing because of it |
green
eyeangel |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
I have been entertaining the thought of every now
and again for about a month now. I had 9 month's clean and then
relapsed Thanksgiving weekend then again Christmas weekend. I
keep telling myself I can just do it "ever now and again" but I
know that is not true. I am fighting the thought every minute of
everyday trying to stay clean now. It had become pretty easy not
to think about it all day before I relapsed. Now I'm right back
where I started 9 months ago. There is no such thing as every
now and again |
macy
stiller |
Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
My boyfriend used every now and then and then and
then and then and then. Eventually he was crazing it every day.
Yes maybe people can use every now and then but it turns into
more. |
choose
freedom
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Re: Using Meth Every Now and Then - Casual Use?
I believe "every now and then" is in the eye of the
person saying it and it is a lie they tell themselves. Using any
amount is too much.
When someone tells me they have been Using Meth Every Now and
Then,
or occasionally. And then they tell me about how there life if
going (to the pits). I ask them, "So how is using working out
for you?"
It doesn't work. |
