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Son in rehab but I feel sad!
tearful
mom |
son in rehab
I am new to the boards,
but have been reading them for quite awhile. Sunday I finally
got my son in rehab for his meth addiction. He will be 27 next
week. He has been living at home for over 2 years. This has been
so hard on all of the family. We have tried to help him on our
own, and nothing helped. He is your typical story of lying and
denial until it could go on no longer. I thought I would feel
better once I found him help, but I have not stopped crying
since we put him on the plane. I can't stop thinking about what
he is doing at every moment. When he was at home I worried all
the time too, but I am surprised at how sad I am. How did any of
you feel when your loved one finally got help. Thanks. |
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pcejp |
Re: son in rehab
First of all, welcome.
I can certainly relate to what you are going through. My
daughter was in rehab this time last year. I knew she was
getting the tools she needed for recovery and I should have been
overjoyed. Maybe it was the emotional trauma of the past years,
but I remember crying almost every night she was in treatment.
It will get better, but it might take some time. Remind yourself
that your son is where he needs to be.
If I can give only one piece of advice, this would be it: FOLLOW
THE COMPLETE TREATMENT PLAN. After my daughter's 30 day
residential treatment, it was recommended she go to a woman's
halfway house for 90 days. She was so against this option and
wanted to come home. We held firm and told her that she could
not come back until she had completed everything. Before she
returned home, the counselor, my daughter and us completed a
contract that she needed to honor.
Congrats on your son getting a new chance at life. My daughter
has over one year of being drug free and she is happy. She
learned so much about herself during treatment and in the
halfway house. Her self esteem was brought up and she now feels
proud of herself.
Best wishes for you and your son during his rehab. |
imlost
inky |
Re: son in rehab
Quote:
How did any of you feel when your
loved one finally got help
For me with my sister, just as emotional,
upset, worried, anxious as I had been when she was out using.
By the time she agreed and sought help, it had been a long road.
I had seen her go down to just nothing- to lose her mind- to
become so suicidal it was a minute by minute worry that she
would kill herself.
There is a reason they have family night in group counseling-
because the family needs just as much help as the addict.
We are all sick by the time rehab comes into play.
Follow the complete plan- for sure.
Also, Mom, seek out some support for yourself. The addict isn't
the only one who suffers. We all do.
Take care of you- get help for you- be kind to you.
Congratulations for your son in taking the help that is there.
That is a very good step in the right direction.
Now get your help That way the whole family heals. |
Lives
With
Wolves |
Re: son in rehab
My son was shipped away
to a Rehab Facility when he was 16 (he is 20 now) for drugs. He
was there for 13 very long months. I couldn't afford to travel
to see him, but was able to do it one time. He did not work the
program and was EXTREMELY DEPRESSED. The money ran out and he
came back home and went back to drugs here and there.
With a lot of intervention and help we were able to get him
through his GED courses.
1-1/2 years ago, he went back into Rehab when we found out he
was doing Crystal Meth (smoking it). He was there for 1 month,
went to a half way house for 2 months, but that did not work and
he was asked to leave.
I took him in and he has stayed in a rental on my property. The
first year his brain was mush and he had zero motivation. After
that, things started to look up. He was doing well, but not
holding a job.
2 weeks ago, he just relapsed and was living with serious Meth
addicts. He just came home last night, is straight, and wants to
make something of his life. I believe he has learned something.
This is so not easy. Read and educate yourself about Meth and
addiction. I would recommend getting some books on Codependency
and enabling. If you don't, it will eat you alive and you will
not have a life either. I just bought some books on Tough Love
and such.
It is important now for you to focus on YOU. Live your life.
You did not cause his addiction.
You can not control his addiction.
You can not cure his addiction.
Work on you. Be happy. Life is too short. |
luve
piphany |
Re: son in rehab
Mom, please check into
Al-Anon or NarAnon meetings in your area. Sharing your pain and
learning tools to quiet the crying and lighten your heart from
hearing others just like you tell their experience strength and
hope is the most healing thing you can do for yourself along
with the love and prayers I'm sure you have practiced tons!
You aren't alone |
tearful
mom |
Re: son in rehab
Thank you everyone for
your response. This is one of the hardest things I have ever
done. I am happy he is getting help, but I guess the reality of
his addiction is hitting me in the face. I have known it but now
it is truth. I guess even family has to go through this moment
by moment, hour by hour and day by day. I am glad there is a
place like this for me to come to. I have learned so much here
in the past months. Thank you everyone. |
Kathy
as
cmom |
Re: son in rehab
Dear Tearfulmom,
As another mother of an addict, feel safe and secure in that
your child is in rehab. My daughter is in jail for her 3rd
charge and facing major prison time. These are our children and
we love them unconditionally but we can love them from afar. I
have custody of her daughter. There is not a day that goes by
that I do not cry for my granddaughter. Pray for your son and
your sons recovery. |
Guene |
Re: son in rehab
Hello Mom, I'm Bobbie and
My daughter is a meth addict too, we tried for 8 years to help
her, but nothing we did helped, so this year we sold our house
and move to another state. Told her she had to grow up and start
facing her own problems. We gave her a truck, got her an
apartment and help get her PG&e and phone and we left. She's
doing ok, and she still has her job, she has some problems, but
she is working on them not us, we can't baby-sit her the rest of
our lives, we needed to find ourselves again. It was the hardest
thing we ever did, but we had to. We couldn't live like that
anymore. I could go on and on but I'm glad your son went to a
rehab, and I pray that he will find his way. God Bless you, its
hard very hard, you want to protect them and save them, but you
can't Mom, they have to find there own way. Hugs Bobbie |
Bent
But
Not
Broken |
Re: son in rehab
Tearful Mom,
May I ask if your son was placed in rehab via an intervention
such as on A & E TV's "Intervention" show?
I'm 24 days clean and recovering from meth w/o rehab. but am in
counseling, using "Celebrate Recovery" as my "step" method since
AA and NA where I live aren't useful to *me*, and the folks here
are great, and I have a sponsor who was in NA now converting to
Celebrate Recovery.
My friend who uses has abandoned his wife and children to meth
and lives in a nasty, filthy, trailer where they cook and sell.
His wife has been diagnosed bi-polar and his children and wife
are mostly being cared for by her family. His parents refuse to
think their son is doing meth. If they would wake up, we would
avail ourselves of A & E Intervention immediately.
God Bless You and your family and be glad your son is in rehab. |
tearful
mom |
Re: son in rehab
I called rehab this
morning to check on my son. They said he has been sleeping most
of the time since he arrived. They told me this was normal.
We did not have a formal intervention. We had been talking to
rehab about how to handle the situation. My husband had been in
a bit of denial as to the urgency of the situation. He believed
so much of the promises and lies my son would spin. My son and I
had always been very close until his drug problem started to get
worse. I think it is because he knew I would not let up on him
and was always on him. When my husband talked to the people at
rehab he realized very quickly that our son needed more than
just us. It was hard to watch my husband grasp in a matter of
minutes what I had known for a long time. We decided to have his
bags packed and by the door when he came home. We had rehab on
standby for his arrival and had checked out all flights. When he
got him he was furious. Tried to bargain with us, he tried
everything he could to make us back down. For the first time in
years we stood our ground and didn't budge. He has lived at home
for over two years, we have paid his way, no rent, no car
payments, no insurance payments, no groceries all of his money
went straight to drugs. Never money in the bank always over
drawn. He was at the bottom, only he didn't know it because we
made his life so comfortable. It was the biggest mistake I have
ever made. We were loving him so much we were letting him get
worse. He chose to leave. He spent a few nights in his car. He
has lost all of his old friends. He came back and tried to
bargain again. Finally at 4 am we made plane reservations,
called rehab and got him on the plane Sunday morning. Now we are
just waiting. I don't think I will every be able to forgive
myself for not being stronger sooner. I know I need to focus on
the positive that he is there, but I can't stop feeling like I
let him down over the years by not being stronger. Thank you all
for your kind words. |
Paws
from
hell |
Re: son in rehab
I'm a recovering addict myself.
And as I was reading your post the thoughts that I can only add
here are:
You did good Mom, real good !
That's All. |
tearful
mom |
Re: son in rehab
Paws from hell...When I
read your post...as simple as it was...it made me cry. Thank
you, I needed to hear that. |
Guene |
Re: son in rehab
Mom, You are a good Mom,
don't ever blame yourself because it's not your fault, you
didn't tell him to do drugs he chose. But you did enable him for
awhile, just like I did. You should really go to counseling or
some kind of problem to help you deal with these feelings of
yours. I went to counseling for a long time and coming here has
helped me so much. We can't blame ourselves for their lives,
they knew what they were doing. I pray that your son will go
through with this and start a new life. Hugs |
pcejp |
Re: son in rehab
When my daughter was in
treatment, we were told over and over for us to use that time to
do some healing for ourselves.
I didn't, but sure wish I had. Go to meetings, talk/cry on a
good friend's shoulder, do things that you enjoy but haven't in
a long time.
Take care of you right now! |
wacky
dac |
son in rehab
Not so fast.
First of all it's great your son is in rehab, this is a good
first step.
Now you must learn what your son learned in rehab.
After 5 or 6 trips to rehab my daughter told me all she really
learned was how to do it better, how to hide it better and how
to lie and conceal it better. You must remember that they are
rubbing elbows with all the other addicts and can develop quite
a network in rehab. My daughter would point out to me all the
people on the street that she met in rehab they all were still
seeking the thrill as she still was. More meth.
LISTEN TO PCEIP:
SHE IS RIGHT ABOUT the halfway house.
He will also need to join NA this is were the most good will
come. I know I don't sound upbeat but this is not an upbeat
struggle. It is an uphill struggle with your sons life in the
balance. You can never let down your guard nevvvvvvvvver ever
ever.
Mt daughter had MS and was 7 months clean off meth. I let my
guard down and did not lock up her new prescription for
methadone she died 28 hours after filling it. from acute
methadone intoxication. This is a true war and we are all the
soldiers.
Learn every thing you can about meth and pills you will need to
know it for you and your son to fight. |
Paws
from
hell |
Re: son in rehab
Mom;
All this above is great advice. May I please add;
Your Son, has to recover on his own.
Not every program works for everyone.
Take Care of MOM. |
tearful
mom |
Re: son in rehab
wackydac...I am so sorry
for the loss of your daughter. I can't imagine what you must
feel. I understand what you are telling me, and I will listen,
but...I have to believe, if I don't there is no hope. I will not
let my guard down, but I will hope, pray and believe that he
will come through this whole. I will keep you in my prayers and
I hope you will keep my son in yours. |
JamieJ
1979 |
Re: son in rehab
That's great that your
son went to rehab. Good luck, you have a tough road ahead of
you. I hope things work out. As far as a recovery program when
he gets out, this is essential. NA doesn't work for everyone,
there are other support groups out there so don't get
discouraged if he chooses an alternative to NA. I feel that
rehab alone usually doesn't work, it's the follow up care that
really helps the addict stay on track. The more people they have
to be accountable to the better. I'm a recovering addict and
being accountable to my family, my counselor, my weekly recovery
group, my doctor, my home group (NA) all help me stay clean.
It's hard to fool that many people so if I were to use someone
would know and I would've let that person down besides letting
myself down. That thought helps me when times are tough. I'm
pregnant so my unborn son is a huge motivation to stay clean.
About the supporting him financially and how they just helped
him continue to use. Don't feel bad. Many parents make the same
mistake thinking they are helping. They don't want to see their
child living on the streets. I've come to realize that sometimes
times have to get really tough in order for the addict to want
to change. I mean why quit when using hasn't really affected
your life in a bad way? I mean as long as someone is paying the
bills and the addict can spend their money on dope then life is
great. It's when they have no access to money, no food, no
shelter, no friends, nothing--that's when using starts to look
pretty unattractive. Basically using drugs become not worth it
when you have to give up shelter, food, money, car, all the nice
comforts of normal life. I had to hit rock bottom in order to
really want to stop using. I had to lose my apartment, I had to
lose my car for awhile, I had to lose my job, everything
basically in order to really want to change my life. When my
parents made it easy on me to continue to use that's what I
did--use. So please don't feel bad, my parents made the same
mistake in the past. So have many other parents of addicts I
know. Just try to be there for your son now. Read the book
Codependent No More, even if you're not codependent it has lots
of info on how to help the addict without enabling him/her. Take
care and welcome to KCI. |
wacky
dac |
Re: son in rehab
Thank you tearful mom.
Your son will have a good chance to recover with all the help
you and networks can provide. your son is in my prayers and
whatever happens he will be your son and you will love him.
Jamie is right on with all that great information. |
wacky
dac |
Re: son in rehab
Jamie,
Your story is wonderful it sounds so much like my daughters but
unfortunately she didn't get that motivation early enough. Her
daughter was ten when she cleaned up but she did clean up and
totally on her own (a pretty hard road)
Yes that baby boy is the motivation you need and have.
I am very happy for you.
You just go and love and love love that boy.
All these stories must really help people it's good. |
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