| vctry7 |
Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
I was
doing a project with my kindergartener last night and this
morning. She had to have pictures from her life to put on a
poster. I could only find a few. Before meth I was big on
pictures. I have hundreds. Not hardly any from those years,
though.
The pictures I did take were destroyed. I had about 10 rolls of
film in and never bothered to pick them up. So, now I don't have
ANY baby pictures from my two middle girls. That goes right
along with not having any memories of them as babies.
I was a bad, bad mom. I am not now, though. I am bummed about
the pictures, but not too depressed on the whole. I am looking
at it as just a reminder to do better and take nothing for
granted.
Just wanted to add: No pictures from those years also means I
don't have to look at myself all strung out. That's a good
thing. I did find one picture where I was about 6 months into
recovery and pregnant and it was bad enough.
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forget
suzette |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
I...like a retard....left ALL my family photos
(My parents as children, my baby pics, 20 years of artwork,
every greeting card ever given to me in the last 20 years) at my
dealers house in Vegas...
....never to be seen again.
you are not alone.........I wish I knew what else to say. *sigh*
*hugs* |
| vctry7 |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
Yeah,
it sucks. Sounds like you lost a lot more. I'm sorry.
I had a friend who lost all her pictures in a fire. She was more
upset about that then anything else. She keeps them in a fire
safe box now.
I guess we just have to start over and keep the new ones safe.
She uses a box and we will stay off the drugs. |
luve
piphany |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
I have
gathered every photo I could find in the tweeker's tons of
belongings and put them into an album-for him-for his family-one
day-when he is living again. If.
If not...
well, you guys know that I cared |
Saved
inillinois |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
I
didn't fill in any of my son's baby book. So I don't know how
old he was when he said his first word or when he learned to
walk.
I've yet to be able to forgive myself for being less than my
perfect little boy deserved.
kicks herself |
forget
suzette |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
did
anyone bring cheese?...............we got the whine!
I think I had to stab my own self in the back, and lose
THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS I owned, to realize, how fukin' crazy
I was.
.......here's the punch line.
I brought 2 suitcases FULL of size 5 pants, that I use to wax
the freakin' car with now.
suzie woulda dumped the suitcase full of clothes.......and
packed it full of pictures.
suzette wanted "style"
..........kicks own ass with a boot on a rope thrown over a tree
branch.... |
up
against
thewall |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
Only a
suggestion. Do you have any family that might have taken
pictures and would allow you to duplicate them?
I always have doubles made and make sure my sister or my mom
have them, just in case because you never know. |
nine
years
clean |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
Quote:
I am looking at it as just a reminder
to do better and take nothing for granted.
I lost EVERYTHING that was in my/our
house; everything we worked 15 years for. But the
furniture and the cars and the boat and the appliances and
everything else I lost meant nothing to me.
My greatest material loss was all of my family pictures; and not
just the ones of my husband and two boys and me, but my son's
baby book, and my baby book, and what few pictures there were of
me when I was a baby/little girl. Our house burned down when I
was a kid and most of the pictures of me as a young girl were
destroyed.
I had all that was left. They are all gone now. My son's baby
book had a lock of his hair, and his original birth certificate,
and all the stuff new moms save.
That is the most stinging reminder of what a louse I had become,
as a mom, and that I NEVER want to be that woman again. |
forget
suzette |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
I
wish......everyone gave the rarest, most cherished pics to ME.
Because I loved them so much......for 6 years, I seemed okay.
no one would EVER have predicted , that I'd throw em
away........in million years.
I always said if there's a fire......pictures first...clothes?
...so what!
I gotta have these pictures.
.....that stupid bytch that left em, was not me.
it was me, crazy. |
Time4
Change |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
I'm
sure this is a stupid question but ... Suz if you left them at
the dealers house is there no way you can ever recover them? Did
your dealer destroy them? |
| boys36 |
Re: Missing years worth of pictures because of meth
I too
am missing many years of pictures.
I am 1 month away from divorce.
I signed away everything to him just so we wouldn't have a fight
and drag things out for years and years.
(If you have heard the George Strait song Give It Away, you
understand what I am saying)
The thing I miss the most are my sentimental things. Baby
pictures of my kids that can never replaced and things kids have
made me over the years.
Those things are the things that can never be replaced and it
was so hard leaving them behind.
Those years can never be brought back and the memories that were
lost with them when I left my home. |
