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What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
| Juliett55 |
What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
I was talking to my psychologist today, who has just come back
form an intervention conference. Methamphetamine and alcohol
were two main subjects. She was pointing out the severity and
difficulty of paranoia. Saying that sometimes it is so bad it
turns in to psychosis and that is when many people relapse.
If some of you don't mind answering.
What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
And what can people close to you do to help get through those
hard times?
Appreciate any information. |
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forget
suzette |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
I never had it.....I had real
bad ADHD. at 1st, it helped me focus..........now I am
crippled by it almost. my brain won't calm down until I'm
dead. I don't get bored......but I can't relax, I'm a prisoner
of the moment.
what ever you have when you use, gets worse with meth.
.....if you are insecure, and paranoid, to begin with you start
out, feeling less inhibited, then it spreads.. you're
peeping thru the peep hole. all night.
If you are harboring hostility..............it comes raging to
the surface if you are ADHD....you chaise your tail
and flail, and can't find your ass with both hands. if you
mare obsessive compulsive.......you're worse when you come down. |
| Juliett55 |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
AH....
so psychosis doesn't necessarily happen? |
Kell
happy |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
I think you can get
symptoms/behaviors that are LIKE psychosis, or actually get true
psychosis too. The same with paranoia, I think. I'm just giving
a non-medical guess, based upon experience. I've heard it said
many times that being under the influence of meth will give you
the behaviors of various medical/psychological conditions, but
not a classic diagnosis with that condition.
For example, I was tested positive for "borderline personality
disorder" but I was told I should be re-tested, because the fact
that I was on meth while I was tested probably influenced the
results. In other words, maybe I'm not borderline, but was
behaving that way then. Another using friend of mine had that
diagnosis as well.
I hope Suz finds her post, and I'm sure some others will be able
to help you more than me, too. |
forget
suzette |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
We all have hallucinations when
we don't eat and sleep.
..................I had...auditory and visual...that's
psychosis.
........I found psychosis to be darkly pleasant.
to me it was like a psychedelic trip.......Halloween style.
as I became a more progressed speed freak
the visuals were demonic and looming...but still cool!
............like glimpses, or faint singing.
and criminally insane sexual perversion. I would sit a
draw.
.....and a ghosts would sit down beside me at the table and
stare at me.
I wasn't sure if she was real or not...
.....I talked to her! ....I was like...everything ok?you want to
talk?....why don't you go watch tv! well, as time
goes on...
.....some people pick their face some re arrange a table
12 hours some masturbate some creep around believing
the dark trip is real.
..My ex went to the peephole or the blinds. and I looked
for @#%$ all night I lost, then he'd accuse me of not really
looking for anything......just avoiding him or looking for
another guys phone number. for the most part is was a dark
trip. but there was a couple times, gods suz had to tell
suzette to calm down.......I watched a tree hate my guts..
it's trunk was making snarling, hateful, angry faces.....I was
like...don't look at it.
*sings*
when I'm walking I strut my stuff and I'm so strung out!
....in short. some people believe their hallucinations are
real........some people don't but eventually they do...
I started getting extremely bizarre visions...
psychosis is like a box of chocolates..
....ya never know what your gonna get! |
forget
suzette |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
the answer is yes, we get
psychotic..
....but in different flavors and intensities depending on the
addicts progression (how long they have been using)
age, and individual character flaws or disorders.
personality, back ground...you know.
....I even read about "latent speed personalities"
like this person would never emerge, w/o speed.
my ex was like that.....if you pm me you email..
I'll show you a before, and during full blown psychosis pic
of my ex that will blow your mind. he was paranoid psychotic
he's scare the crap outta charles manson. |
| Rescue |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
Suz-
your description hit home, in some ways too close. But
my worst part was running off the road seeing things.
11 months of meth but now 1 month clean! |
eyes
open83 |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
at some point in my using i
started seeing things that weren't real hearing
voices and talking to people that weren't there...in the state i
was in i thought it was fun and thought that it was in some way
something to be proud of, because it meant i obviously used more
than i should have...
in the end of my using, anytime i was by myself, I would sit and
cry, with my head in my hands, curled up, begging the voices in
my head to please stop and leave me alone...it was horrible...i
wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy...
thank god i have some sanity back today... |
| Lisa |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
I can give you my experience
with meth-induced paranoia.
I had a gf who was diagnosed with PTSD. Twelve years before I
met her she suffered an EXTREMELY traumatic event.
When I met her, she wasn't using, but when she started to use
again, she'd tell me the people who instigated the initial event
were looking for her, going to find her, and were going to kill
her.
I did research into the whole thing, spoke to her doctors and to
prisons, and I was assured the people who traumatized her were
either in prison or dead.
But no matter who told her she was safe, no matter what records
she was shown to prove it, she believed they were coming for
her.
Ultimately, one night while spun out, she was absolutely SURE
they were on her roof and ready to get her.
She put a gun in her mouth and shot herself, just like she told
me she would do if they were that close.
Having PTSD, she suffered from paranoia anyway. But strung out
on meth, is exacerbated the situation to "the point of no
return." |
| Juliett55 |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
Thank you guys for all the
answers, priceless to understand.
SO does that condition go away in the early recovery, or does it
continue for a while? I know depression hits big time, but do
hallucination and psychosis still happen after a few weeks
clean? |
forget
suzette |
Re: What does paranoia and psychosis feel like?
not for lisa's friend.
......but my ex is still suffering lingering feelings in
inadequacy..
My ADHD never cleared up and was worse when the dust settled.
but the hallucinations went away. |
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