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What caused you to stop using Meth?
hussie
dors |
What caused you to stop using Meth?
I really would like to know what
was the main thing that made all of the recovering addicts in
here STOP using? What was the catalyst? Was it a case of .. you
were sick and tired of being sick and tired? What was YOUR rock
bottom? Did you just know in your own heart.. That this was the
time? Or is it all trial and error? |
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Naiev
Newly
wed |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
I put my addict in
prison....that didn't make him stop though.
The reality that he truly did lose everything - including his
freedom - did. |
hussie
dors |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
Thankyou NN.. I should have also
put this question to the loved ones.. I can relate to what you
said NN...My addict is also in prison .. he has lost his
freedom.. he has lost everything... it might be his rock bottom. |
Sfj |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
I strongly believe that we meth
addicts will stop when the pain of continued use exceeds the
fear of withdrawal.
I was in too much pain to continue. (emotional pain) |
eyes
open83 |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
co signed with sfj
plus i couldn't handle the voices in my head any longer.... |
silly
veronica |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
No offense Leslie (REALLY, none
meant) but I don't think you'll really know with your husband
until he gets released from prison.
I was 100%, no question at all, convinced that Chad was
recovering and healthy and going to come out of prison a changed
man. He did 9 months of Bible study, church (even singing in the
choir), NA meetings as often as he could, reading on his own. I
was so wrong.
The true test will be when he's home (again, I mean NO
disrespect by that). |
FSOAB |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
Naiev,
I hope with all my heart that he will get out and build from
there. That you have a wonderful life together.. Don't put a
whole lot of stock into did just yet.. Don't want your bubble to
pop like the atomic bomb.
I've got a box of 'I love you more than anything' and 'I
really screwed up' and 'all I want is you and our daughter....'
Pictures up the ying-yang, cute little boxes made out of match
sticks.. He talked a good talk after he got out for about a year
and everything went BANG!!!
Really hope its not so for you... |
Lisa |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
Knowing my son deserved better
than a using mom was my catalyst. |
forget
suzett
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Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
the last time I flat ran out of
money, and sanity
........ 3 times before that
I realized I wasn't a "functional user" anymore and HAD to quit.
simply because...
I was not mentally capable of doing a job, or getting a new one,
......to make the money, to keep going.
and was not willing to do any of the things it would take to
continue.........so I fell flat on resources.
I went crazy 3x.
...a few times I wanted to pursue other consciousness.
I got busted....back in 86' when I was 22. for singing the
alphabet with an 8 ball and 2 quarters.
...............being in rehab, made it hard to keep using.
there was a time I was functional
.....about 15 years.
where I did it to get focus........and did the things I needed
to do to require focus.
and quit.......to me. when there were enough things I
needed to organize or wanted to draw, I did it again.
I was "functional" when I quit BEFORE I hit bottom.
..I didn't know what "bottom" was.
but it got to where, I got more crazy than focused.
...and spent all night looking for supplies, I was sitting
on............or something.
I quit 6 years and never picked up a pencil to draw
I felt numb, my brain was not fine tuned.
...it felt like I was under a spell....like, waiting for it to
lift.
When I relapsed after that long sobriety...
....the second it hit my blood stream....
I told myself, I tried it, the worlds way....and I hate it.
I'll never NOT do speed
again..............................I'm going to die using.
I gave it my all to make good on the promise.
so whatever threatened to take speed away...
.........................I scoffed a it's importance.
with great passionate defiance............in the downward
spiral............when I was severely flailing in twisted dark
psychosis........"not minding" living on the street in order to
have meth.......smoking in condemned bldgs.
.....and I knew I was circling to land....I was still living...
.......I thought.... if I'm going to do it...I might at well do
it right and REALLY........go down in flames, skidding down the
runway on my side.........so I took out 9 payday loans.
I quit about 500 times when I was enlisted...
.....I saw rock bottom only 4 or 5 times in 25 years.
I've seen rod stewart 13 times.
...............I'm glad I did something else.
It's going to be OK......see? what could happen? |
Naiev
Newly
wed |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
I have to believe in what he's
done so far. He has remained clean since being incarcerated.
There is plenty of meth in there...along with heroin, pot, and
everything else you can imagine.
He has attended 32 NA meetings.
He's been tested 18 times (all clean).
He has said out loud "I'm an addict and I'm always going to be
an addict."
He has admitted he is powerless and has found his Higher Power.
He has searched his past and knows what pain from his past he
must deal with.
He knows he will lose what little he has left if he touches it
again.
I can no longer look to the future - but what he has
accomplished so far. One day at a time.
People out of prison do stay clean - it's very discouraging when
I'm always hearing other stories of their loved ones not making
it.
Incarcerated or not - there is NEVER a guarantee from one day to
the next that an addict won't use. If all the recovering addicts
here can do it, why am I constantly being made to feel like
because my husband's in prison he won't? Is he 'tainted' because
he did time?
There are things I will never share / do with my husband - even
if he stays clean for the rest of our living days. Why? Because
I'll never FULLY trust or let my guard down. Because I know
there are no guarantees. |
nine
years
clean |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
I sensed death was very near,
and although I had been trying to give my life back to my maker
since the time I first attempted suicide at the age of 14, for
the first time in my life, I CHOSE life.
I had an epiphany, thank God. |
hussie
dors |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
nineyearsclean, my addict said
something similar to me. He said... I have to stop or i just
know I'm going to die...Your reply gave me goose bumps. |
Iselita |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
I was tired of being a loser, a
loser that was going to have a baby. It started with me not
wanting to use meth while i was pregnant. After i had my baby I
said, I am free why go back. I saw it here and there but had too
many bad memories from it, I have a hate towards meth and a
fear, That was 3 yrs ago |
missy
buns |
Re: What caused you to stop using Meth?
I could not feel love. The self
loathing was consuming me.
I felt so alone, guilty, a slave to addiction, so ashamed. My
addiction was killing me mentally, physically, and spiritually.
I had to surrender. |
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