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Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better?

Chris	Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? I have been a meth user for 2 years and have been sober for the last 2 weeks and all I can think about is killing myself... does it ever get any better or will I be left completely numb forever? I stopped using because of the profound negative effects it had on my life, but life seems worse without it...
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Lisa	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Hi Chris, I'm sorry you feel so badly...I understand, cuz I feel that way, too. Most people here will say that yes, it absolutely gets better! Someone will be along soon to direct you to an article on dopamine that one of our moderators, Loraura, has written. It explains why we feel like we do when we stop using. It's a great article and it'll help you understand why you feel like sh!t. Other factors, like your age, what method you used to get high (snorting, smoking, eating or slamming) and the state of your general health have a lot to do with how fast you'll heal. I'll have a year clean on January 19th, but unfortunately for me, I'm still suffering from a multitude of mental, emotional and physical problems, all brought on from six years of non-stop meth use. I think about killing myself more often than not.... dopamine depletion is a horrible thing. I can assure you, though, that it does dissipate with time. When I first got clean, I was a completely non-functioning, horribly depressed mess for months and months. Very slowly, over the last six months especially, I've noticed a gradual improvement. Don't give up hope, because each day you feel horrible is one day closer to feeling better. I promise you. When you're feeling this down, it's hard to imagine ever feeling better again. But you will - just hang in there. Stick around...these people helped me get and stay clean.
danimal 55	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Of course it gets better! This forum is crawling with peeps who at one time would've preferred death over recovery.... BUT! we opted for life and went to ANY length to recover, which means getting off the porch and seeking the abundant help that is at our disposal. It does get worse before it gets better when we quit using, it's called Healing, and you DO have that on your side. And now you have an entire forum on your side, just keep showing up. & DO remember, more meth = more of what you're feeling. Read thru this forum and you'll get an idea of what it takes to heal and stay clean, you do have many options to choose from. Trust me...alone ain't it. Welcome, hope to see more of YOU
guest who	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Chris, congrats on 2 weeks clean. yes it does get better, much better. It takes work but you'll get it. The first month or so I felt just like you did. I had a plethora of negative emotions and feelings. Basically wherever you were before you started, you will feel again. This is an opportunity to work on feeling better than you did before you started, emotionally. It's a new beginning. Maybe you could seek help from a doctor if you continue feeling bad and feel your sobriety is in jeopardy. Your brain has to reset and get used to being meth free. You'll get it dude. Be proud of yourself and hang in there. Sleep the sadness away for a while if you have to, do whatever, just don't do drugs. Good luck and congratulations.
BentBut Not Broken1	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Welcome...and yes. .it does get better! Some need longer than others, some have acute withdrawal, some are easier to get through the early quitting. My best advice, see your medical doctor and be honest about any and all substance abuse. Let your doctor decide if medicine would help you through this. Some it does do wonders for...you risk nothing by trying and finding out. Posting here is therapy in and of itself. Unfortunately, there is much work to be done ahead. We used drugs to avoid something in our lives and to recover--we need to know what those wounds and issues were that we "masked" with drugs. That can come from NA, CMA, AA, therapy, ...endless ways of recovery. For now, hang in and hang on. Eat high protein foods, drink lots of water. Journal everything you are feeling or do something creative with the "negative" you are feeling. It does get better!!!! And welcome to KCI with 2 GREAT clean weeks of healing and recovery already started.
SOS 1988	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Two weeks is nothing, dawg. Be prepared for at least a year, possibly several till you'll be your pre-meth self. I've been a regular user for 2 years, weekly for another year. We haven't used for very long so the damage is (relatively) minimal. If you stay off it you can make a full recovery. I think about killing myself everyday, i've been clean four months; be prepared for the long haul.
Penel0pe	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? If you are truly feeling suicidal, please look at the top of the main page - we have listings for suicide hotlines all over America and some other countries too. 2 weeks clean is a VERY painful place to be, and it is a place that you can and will survive if you just make the right choices. Sleep as much as you can. Eat, drink LOTS of fluids, and, if you are really feeling that you are a danger to yourself, then pick up that phone. You aren't going to feel this bad forever. Quitting meth is probably the hardest thing I ever did - and I survived. Welcome to KCI and please keep coming back - we are here for you, to support you, and trust me, MANY of us have been where you are today.
forget suzette	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? NO ...if you're unhappy tooo long you'll go back and damage yourself more.....wait another couple weeks and see a shrink. tell him how you feel. I felt like that 6 years........before my last couple relapses. I quit six years.....I never knew I was ADHD. I was suicidal. ......if you feel so bad you want to use. use the same money and get drugs to improve the quality of your life, not destroy it.
ms pickle42	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? From personal experience -- and from familiar words of others -- Time DOES heal all things -- eventually..... but it does.
Macy stiller01	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Chris It does get better. Stick around this board and let us help and support you. Are you doing any programs? Therapy? Treatment? NA? Just curious. Anyway congrats on 2 weeks.
Chris	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? No, I'm not in any program. I want to thank you guys for all of your support, you have no idea how much i appreciate it.
Penel0pe	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Hey Chris - YOU CAME BACK!! YAY! Are you willing to give a program a try? That's what got me through the hard times, and that's what gets me through today, good times and bad - CLEAN!
BentBut Not Broken1	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Nice to see you back Chris!!! Tell us more about you, vent, chat--we are here and care and want to see you recover as we are doing. Just jump in the conversations or ask anything. You do matter and we do care! Hugs and prayers Chris
wana bclean	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Stay here don't leave..... I am asking the same questions you are.....at 5months -2days clean.....yes I have slipped twice.....I still ask that.... You know what keeps me going....these people here....and at some other places I go..... ........I have chosen to believe them....cause I have not yet seen it for myself.... But look around......recovery is possible.....it's never gonna be easy.....but it will get easier....does that make sense?? We don't have to be dope fiends forever.....Please stay....keep trying.....relapse sucks......it's worse every time around.....trust me.....trust everyone here.... Even if you choose not to go to a program.....I don't go but they say it helps......but if you choose not to at least keep coming back......and vent.....get help.....tell people how your feelin'......it's better than gettin' high...... Hope you choose your life......no matter how depressing sobriety gets.....remember that dope is only a temporary fix.....eventually you have to face life again.....and the more you use the harder you make it......it can get better from here or it can get worse.....think about how you feel right now.....what are you gonna choose....temporary release or permanent fix??
nine years clean	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? *Quote:* does it ever get any better or...? YES YES YES YES YES YES YES I can't write anymore to you right now cause I'm at work, but, you get the drift??? Lori 10+ Years Meth Free AND Better Than Ever!!!
writerjp	Re: Used meth 2 years, clean 2 weeks - Does it get better? Yes! Of course it gets better. I have been clean for almost 3 years and I have actually been really happy lately. It all just takes time. You have to be patient, everything takes time.